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some frustrations

Well the past few days have been kinda dull.. have had work which I am still enjoying but still have issues with some of the people there mainly one of my supervisors who I swear has it out for me just her attitude she doesn't say o you are doing a better job of getting the money thing or any encouragement just basically so you know that someone from vocrehab who I am working with will be coming to observe and such.. kinda bluntly and such not really saying that she will just be there to observe and see what goes on just that she will be there like she is there to make sure I don't fuck up or at least don't fuck up too badly.. but yet I am sick and fucking tired of her and her lack of suppport and help to understand things  a few weeks ago she called me into her office and was just was very blunt and not very kind with talking with me and then she tried to get my attention by slapping her hand right infront of my face which just pissed the fuck out of me and took everything in me not to say don't you ever fucking do that again.. so I have emailed my councilor at vocrehab to discuss looking at other positions that could possibly open up and maybe applying for one of those rather than working at a place where I am not appreciated much by the people there so we shall see but I have till september 8th to prove to this supervisor that I can handle the job which I can  I have done a much better job of counting the drawer just making a few minor mistakes but nothing to serious.. 

 Lets see what else still kinda low because tomorrow school starts and I won't be there to work at the news station and to hang with the crew.. I am only 10 credits away from graduating  so this year will be a bit hard but maybe come this spring i could maybe take a class or too I still need a art credit and a science +lab so maybe I could take those so when I do get back I will have to only take classes in my major.. but we shall see it is still early september so we shall see what happens...

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