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So still no job and my outlook on finding one is beginning to dwindle. I try to keep a positive outlook on this but god i am soo fucking frustrated. I have applied to at least 20 places and yet nothing no calls I receive emails saying we will let you know if we (the company) would like for me to come in for an interview and I have interviewed a total of 3 times and all three times I have a week later received a postcard in the mail saying thanks for interviewing but sadly we don't have any openings or my skills don't match what the company is looking for.. I don't know what else I can keep doing beside applying and following up and such and hoping that this economy will slowly start to turn itself around but I can't keep hoping on an enconomy run by an idiot president would do anything to help me....
 Beside that I am really lonely and I really just want to hang out with people but there aren't man oppertunties to do that where I am. Most of my friends are at least a couple hours away and are busy and I don't really have much of a social life meaning NO DATES NO HANGING OUT NO NOTHING it is just getting to the point where I am feeling like such a fucking failure it isn't even funny. I keep getting told that it isnt me but that it is the economy that we are living in and that there isn't much of a job market right now and that people are impressed with my spirit and that I have done a lot in all regards.
 But yet I want to go back to school and finish my education and be with my friends, I want to get out and have fun go to a bar and watch the game, I want a job and friends and maybe even a girlfriend if I were so lucky ( lately my luck SUCKS)  so I really don't know what to do anymore 

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