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that little empty spot

well i dont usually like to dwell on the fact that i am in fact single but i guess it still hurts especially in the way that it ended. Now I won't go into details about how it all came crashing down but lets just say it was due to end but the way it did was not how I expected it to. 
but what in the past stays in the past but it still leaves that empty void in my heart that I am finding harder and harder to fill.
 I am not saying  I haven't met anyone, but most of the people I talk with are online and the chances of ever meeting them are very remote it is finding that person around my area that is harder to do. As a friend said it is hard to find people in such a remote area where I live.. it would be easier to do in a bigger city like atmosphere where there is more going on and more to do.
  There is that issue but the other issue is trying to save enough money so that I can get back to school to finish up my education.  I really have a feeling in the back of my head and heart that it might not work out.  I only earn 9.50 an hour and work bout 20 hours a week so you do the math.. plus i have a car payment to make car insurance to pay health insurance and student loans all that need to be paid i just can't seem right now to make financial ends meet and I am afraid that it will take longer to get back to finish my education than was originally planned. Plus my parents who tell me not to worry are also having their own personal financial issues and I want to help them but I am unable to do so and i know that they would rather I focus my energy of helping myself but it is just very hard.
 I really would love for the economy to be better so I could earn the money I need payoff all the loans i need to pay and also figure out a way that I can get back to school to finish my education

 All in all I guess it comes down to 5 things I want/need
1.) Earn Enough Money so I can get back to school to finish my education
2.) make sure my loans and everything else can get paid off
3.) find that special woman so that empty feeling in my heart can become full again( even though I am in no rush it would be nice to have it happen)
4.) Try and help my parents anyway I can.
5.) Continue to live my life the way it is and change what I can and what I can't let fait take over.

guess thats about it

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