The Sashman Speaks

well the past few days have been busy I have been doing a lot of volunteering for the obama/biden campaign for both new hampshire and vermont and will continue to it again this weekend by making more phone calls and hopefully canvasing depending on the weather. And work after a rough couple of days where I actually was facing the possibility of being let go I have contacted my job coach and they met with my supervisor today and I think the meeting went well and I plan on talking with them over the next few days to see what was suggested on behalf of my work place and on behalf of the job coaches.  Also I have been watching the DNC and wow the speeches beginning with Michelle Obama and tonight with Barack Obama making a special( not so surprise) appearance at the Convention has just lifted my spirits and has made me feel so proud to say that I am a democrat and that I am a supporter of Obama/Biden and I just hope that I can do my best as a lil ole volunteer to help get them to their rig...

So earlier this summer I was supposed to get a dental procedure done to recorrect my smile which as it stems right now includes a gap where due to my cleft lip and palate a tooth never grew in. Well I had been meeting with my dentist and the surgereon who was going to be performing the procedures.  The procedure included the removal of my front 4 teeth then inserting a temporary tendure into the gap until my gums and mouth had healed the removing the denture and putting 4 new replacement teeth into those places.   Well we had been getting ready for that procedure but it had to be put on hold due to the inability of my family to be able to pay the financial end of it.  So with my ability to stay on my parents policy up when I turn 25 in october I filled out and submitted forms for vermont medicaid  and was accepted so I know am still covered till my birthday if not longer due to the possibility of having to have to get a insulin pump prescribed to me.   However, I am not sure if either ...

well today I went and met with my dr and found out that my recent weight loss could be more determental to my health than it  might have appeared to be.  Since I moved back home I have lost over 25 pounds and but that might be due to my high hemoglobin A1c's which are NOT where they should be. A reasonable good # is around 6.. my numbers are twice that yes 12.2 (NOT GOOD) plus ontop of that my cholestrol is in the 260 range which is also due to the high blood sugars.   SO the plan now is to look into getting onto an insulin pump sooner rather than later. TO do this I need to go and take a test to see whether or not my body is still producing insulin and if so how much and then from there we go and get my health insurance to okay the pump.  The reasoning behind this is to head off the possible complications of diabetes which can include kidney issues (which I already have a small one which is one of my kidney's is smaller than the other and leaks protein) so I already have that ...

Yesterday morning at around 5:45 I was woken up by a LOUD pitched scream coming from my cat rosey who was under my bed. I quickly picked her up and realized she was having difficulty breathing taking large breaths every few minutes but not being able to move. I put her on a pillow and she flopped didn't move just layed there then at one time she tried to get up but didn't have the strength and toppled to the floor just a few inches below my bed.    I picked her up and laid her back on the pillow and just petted her letting her know that I was there for her and that she wasn't alone.   My other 3 cats came in and quickly realized that something was wrong and as cats seem to know when something is wrong quickly left the room leaving rosey and I together to spend her last minutes.   I just sat on my bed petting her and letting her know I was there and that she was not alone as I stated earlier here but yet at around 6:20 she took her final breath a long breath then her mouth c...

well i dont usually like to dwell on the fact that i am in fact single but i guess it still hurts especially in the way that it ended. Now I won't go into details about how it all came crashing down but lets just say it was due to end but the way it did was not how I expected it to.  but what in the past stays in the past but it still leaves that empty void in my heart that I am finding harder and harder to fill.  I am not saying  I haven't met anyone, but most of the people I talk with are online and the chances of ever meeting them are very remote it is finding that person around my area that is harder to do. As a friend said it is hard to find people in such a remote area where I live.. it would be easier to do in a bigger city like atmosphere where there is more going on and more to do.   There is that issue but the other issue is trying to save enough money so that I can get back to school to finish up my education.  I really have a feeling in the back of my head and heart...

Well Work is going as well as can be expected I have I think finally figured out the best way to count down money after talking with one of my supervisors who gave me some pointers and some hints on how do it it seems to have worked which is reducing the amount of time that I have to spend inside the sometimes very crowded countdown room so from spending 30 minutes I have been able the past few times to count down my drawer in less than 15 minutes which is making me less stressed, my supervisors less aggrivated waiting for me to countdown.    SO okay other than work nothing much has been going on been watchin the olympics and two nights ago I think was one of the most exciting events I have ever seen on tv.. the 4x100 individual mens relay had the closest finish of any race it was incredibly insane the US was a few arm lengths away at the beginning of the final push and then at the final 15 meeters the US just flew past the french and won by .8 one hundreths of a second.. it was crazy....

Well today at work was not the easiest of days.. it started out well but at the end it didn't go so well. Counting money is my downfall it seems. I have a system that works most of the time but the past couple of days it hasn't come that easy.. especially tonight it wasn't my night.. I got off register at 9 and then it began counting down my drawer.. well every time I counted it down I kept getting different counts so I kept counting and recounting and still couldn't end up with the same amount of money that I needed to get.   SO at 9:30 was told I thought kinda rudely by my supervisor that "its 9:30 we want to go home" well I can understand that she wanted to go home and that with my counting my money it wasn't going to be easy to get out before 10:00 but still the attitude I could have used without but oh well..  so came home in a pissed off mood but I emailed my job coach and we shall see what happens hopefully they can help me find a better system of c...

Okay so lets start at the beginning!!  So I  found out in mid may that I would be unable to acquire the personal loan that I had been able to get just a year ago due to policy changes at the corperation. So I am taking this next year or maybe 2 off to save some money so I can get back and finish my education which I am a year away from completing.  So I packed up my apartment with my dad's help and moved back to my childhood home and room still looks, smells and feels the same even though I haven't fully lived here since I was 21 but it is nice to be home albeit my parents house but still it is nice.   Work: I have been working the past month as a Baseball Umpire for prep and jr babe ruth games and have enjoyed being behind the plate again calling balls and strikes and of course hearing it from those crazy fans that just love to heckle me ( but that is part of the game isn't it??)  other than also been working at a local food coop as a a cashier which is quite enjoyable and...