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So, this weekend is definitely one that I am glad is coming to a close. Saturday I received a phone call from someone inviting me out for a drink and to go see a local theatre production. Well lets just say I shouldn't have left my warm comfy room. I was dooped the person who called never showed up and I was left standing in the cold waiting for an hour and half.. now you may wonder why I waited soo long.. well its because I always believe that you should give someone the benefit of the doubt, but yeah for 90 minutes I waited and wondered what happened, until I finally came home and was in a bad mood.
SO today, drove to meet someone I had been talking with for about a week and thought that there was a definite connection with them only to when we did meet have her pull a 180 and be totally bored, and uninterested in being with me.
This is seriously starting to get on my nerves, the fact that I am a good genuine nice guy and yet women for the most part seem to not want anything to do with me or if they do then its a complete act because when they do finally get to spend time with me, its obvious they would rather have never met me.
I just am starting to feel like totally giving up on ever finding someone, and have started to come to the realization that maybe there isn't a specific person for everyone??? I mean I keep hearing when you stop looking or searching that person will find you.. well right now I feel like that is total BULLSHIT who would want a guy like me???

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