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REFLECTION OF A YEAR GONE PAST

well tomorrow at 8:15 in the morning i will officially become a quarter of a century years of age. Over this past year a lot of stuff has gone on. I have had a long term relationship end horribly and have begun slowly moving on after beginning to accept that this break up was not my fault but was inevitable that it was going to end.  I am taking a year off from college and have moved back home and was working at one job for a couple of months and now starting next week I begin my new job at borders bookstore.  I have really grown up a lot in a year and have begun to really understand what it means to be a adult with responsibilities and with trying to live up to my own expectations and not try to live up to anyone else's.  I have had my ups and downs and have come through it stronger than I really think I could have. I know that there is still alot of growing and learning to come and it is something that I am looking forward to with an open mind and a willingness to do my best and we shall see what happens.. nobody knows what the future may hold but I hope that it holds that I will continue to be strong, learn, live laugh and love( the last being a who knows) but I am upbeat and looking forward to 8:15

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