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You Think You Know Me...

You Think You Know Me BUT... you don't see the nights when I can't sleep
You Think You Know Me BUT... you don't see the pain behind my laugh and my attempt at a smile
You Think You Know Me BUT the effort I keep putting in day in and day out to make each day a success hoping that I won't fail
You Think You Know Me But... I am a mess, and just because I don't let you see the pain and hurt in my life
You See A resiliant and confident person .. but at times its just an act, its not me..
the question is who am I??? I am Sasha I am a brother, a son, a friend, a fighter, I have many different talents, not one defines me. I am always trying to make my friends feel my love and appreciation, even if I don't always receive it in return.
You See someone who you want to see .. but is that really me???
I wonder who I am and if I don't know who I am, how can sometimes a complete stranger know or think they know me better then I know me???? it makes no sense to me.
I know that one day the person that you see, and the person that I know that I am will combine and it will make for a great person, someone, with confidence, who can jump over any hurdle that is put in front of me, who will achieve the goals that I set for myself, I know that I will continue to be a good friend, brother, son.. all I need is to be able to put the image that people have of me and the person that I am and it will be a great person.. but when that will happen I wish I knew, but I am not going to give up without a fight, I have been fighting since the day I was born and though at times I have been knocked down, like this fall, when I thought the fight was knocked out of me, I still was able to get back up, and I will continue to do that till the day I take my final breath on this journey called life.
So you think you know me.. well how about we continue to join in this roller coaster called life and see where it may take us..

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