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So.... went out on a date this past weekend and thought it went pretty well only to later get a message saying that sadly there wasn't any romantic chemistry between us. Sometimes that happens, but my recent streak of one and done dates I wish would just end. I mean i know that I am not the greatest guy in the world and that I am not perfect but I try and do my best.
A friend of mine told me today to be proud of who and what I am and not to dwell too much on what I don't have but to accept what I do. I mean I do this for the most part, but who doesn't wish they were abit taller, or more beautiful, richer. etc... but I think sometimes you need to be happy with who and what you are.
I have great friends and I am truly blessed and lucky to have each and every one of them in my life. I have also realized that during the last few weeks, I really haven't been myself. I have been more depressed and just saddened but I know that good times are ahead of me.. just gotta keep on trucking as my 2nd grade teacher once wrote on my cast ... so that is what I will continue to do and may the light keep shinning down and the phoenix keep soaring

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