The Sashman Speaks

So.... went out on a date this past weekend and thought it went pretty well only to later get a message saying that sadly there wasn't any romantic chemistry between us. Sometimes that happens, but my recent streak of one and done dates I wish would just end. I mean i know that I am not the greatest guy in the world and that I am not perfect but I try and do my best. A friend of mine told me today to be proud of who and what I am and not to dwell too much on what I don't have but to accept what I do. I mean I do this for the most part, but who doesn't wish they were abit taller, or more beautiful, richer. etc... but I think sometimes you need to be happy with who and what you are. I have great friends and I am truly blessed and lucky to have each and every one of them in my life. I have also realized that during the last few weeks, I really haven't been myself. I have been more depressed and just saddened but I know that good times are ahead of me.. just gotta keep o...

You Think You Know Me BUT... you don't see the nights when I can't sleep You Think You Know Me BUT... you don't see the pain behind my laugh and my attempt at a smile You Think You Know Me BUT the effort I keep putting in day in and day out to make each day a success hoping that I won't fail You Think You Know Me But... I am a mess, and just because I don't let you see the pain and hurt in my life You See A resiliant and confident person .. but at times its just an act, its not me.. the question is who am I??? I am Sasha I am a brother, a son, a friend, a fighter, I have many different talents, not one defines me. I am always trying to make my friends feel my love and appreciation, even if I don't always receive it in return. You See someone who you want to see .. but is that really me??? I wonder who I am and if I don't know who I am, how can sometimes a complete stranger know or think they know me better then I know me???? it makes no sense to me. ...

Well its the first update of hopefully many more in 2011. Tomorrow I begin working my 3rd job at a local recreation program working the scorers table at basketball games. I did this last year and truly enjoyed it and I am glad and excited to be doing it once again. Work at the real estate company has surpassed the 3 month mark which is quite an personal accomplishment for me, since most jobs I have had last about 3 months before they end. I truly love being around the people there and doing lil things to keep my boss organized and happy and its just a very relaxed and good natured atmosphere to work in. Filming is going well, already have filmed about 3 basketball games and will be filming many more in the upcoming weeks. Other then that nothing to exciting just living life and enjoying as much as I can.