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A New Year a New Beginning?

Well my old year ended quite miserably I lost my job on new years eve day after working my shift i was told by my manager that due to not having enough hours to go around management ( which he had only found out maybe a few hours before) was told to cut all people that were hired as temp workers which meant ME..  SO after working there for just over a month and a few weeks I lost my job and it really hurt.. I really loved it at borders the people the atmosphere everything I even got used to waking up at 4, 5 and 6 in the morning so I could be there to work and on a couple of occasions was there an hour before we even opened the store just sitting in the parking lot.
 SO what have i been doing since then.. I have been meeting with a few different agencies to help with not only finding a job but finding one that fits my abilities and is something that I would enjoy doing. However the person in charge of my case isn't really that in tuned with me and doesn't really understand where I am coming from or who I am so I have tried to set up a meeting with her and my old case manager to meet and discuss how to better go about this whole employment situation which is just driving me nuts quite litteraly.
 I have been offfered and have accepted a position with my high school baseball team heading their stats program and maybe can work this into a small paying gig nothing big since the program is on a shoestring budget but maybe something small just to get myself by.
 I have also applied for Social Security Disability which isn't much but since I do have a few i guess you could call them disabilities such as having club feet, anxiety and depression which as a combo cause for finding a good job fit and match very difficulty to do, this could help with some of the stress of the finances which are very difficult to deal with even with my parents offer which I have taken them on of helping me with some of the finances such as paying for my oil change and food and gas (on occasion) but still I don't like having to ask for help unless i really need to and right now I need all the help I can get.
 I haven't really gotten out of my house very much lately unless it is to run quick errands or go to the gym and it s really getting to me all I really want is to have friends to hang out with and get a bite with maybe even a drink but yet there isn't really anyone around that I can do that with and it is making my depression increase plus the anxiety of trying to find a job and balance my finances and everything else is making me a wreck.
 I just hope that once Obama takes office on Tuesday that the outlook might just start to look a lil brighter and that My personal outlook might look a little bit brighter as well.

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