Where to start on what’s been going on in my life over the past two years, since I have written anything on here. Well, I am still living and working as an umpire here in Florida and while it's not always the most appreciated job, it is one that I have and continue to have a strong love, passion, and dedication towards.
I am going to be entering into my twenty-first year combined between my work in Vermont as well as here in Florida. I can’t believe I started this journey that many years ago, but it is and has been one of the greatest decisions of my life.
Through umpiring I have met some of the most amazing people who have become close friends and allies in what we do. This translates not just on the field, but also in my personal life, where I have leaned on these people to help me through the roller-coaster that is my life. I never thought that through umpiring I would have been able to meet the people that I have, and to be able to call them my friends, means more to me than anything.
I have also undergone a lot of changes in the past two years, since I last posted. I am no longer the person that I was and have been working hard to find not only peace, but also comfort in knowing that I am doing my best and that is all that I can ask from myself. I have tried my best to learn from my mistakes, and I still struggle with some of those lessons, like anyone else, but I do my best to learn from each and everyone of them.
Gone are some friendships, and while that is diffiuclt at times to accept and or understand, I have come to the conclusion, that it was their respective choices, to end friendships, and that while I may not like it, I do respect their choices. While those doors, might have closed, quite a few new ones have opened and I have met some wonderful new people and made some good friends in the process.
So in that respect, I am once again living on my own, with my super furry purry companion of twelve years, (soon to be thirteen in August, Mitzy. We have been through a lot together and she has helped me in more ways that I could have eveer hoped for.
So two years ago, I made a return trip back to Vermont to at the time help my parents out while my mom was dealing with the after affects of surgery. This was a turbuland time not just for me but for my entire family. As a family, we have dealt with a lot and have always done our best to when it is necessary to we have come together and worked at becoming a stronger unit.
This has been tested, mulitple times over the past two years, and I won’t go into details about all of the events, but knnow that each and every one of them has made and impact on my life. So as we all know, we only have a short time on this earth, and we should live each and every day to its fullest. It was two years ago, that I was faced with the reality that my parents,while still amazing people, are getting older and with that I am starting to accept that I may not have as much time with them as I once thought. Now with Covid it has become even more frustrating, and depressing to accept. However, I still talk to my parents mutliple times per day and sometimes hearing their voices is all the reassuraance I need.
One thing that has truly impacted and changed me is htat recently my dad, who not only broke his hip one week before his birthday in September, but earlier in November suffered a stroke. This shocked and rocked me to my very core of who I am. My dad and I have a unique and very special bond, like most fathers and sons, but to me my dad is my best friend. We may not always agree or see things the same way, but we have always respected and accepted each other for who and what we are.
I really don’t know how to put into words how much this has changed me, because it changes moment to moment. All I know is that I am beyond thankful that my dad is still here, and that I am able to continue our relationship with each other. I will admit, I am terrifed of the possiblily that I may not have much time with my parents, left but I do know that I treasure each and every time I am able to talk with them because in the greater picture it will be those moments that I will never be able to get back.
There is soo much going on in my life, with Covid, my relationship ending, old friends leaving and new ones arriving, that even if I were to try and tell you all that has gone, on I don’t think I would have enough space on here to even come close to talking about all that has gone on. I will do my best to try and update this as much as possible. For those of you who do read this, or know me, feel free to message me on Facebook or shoot me a text or an email.
I hope that this has given you a small idea of what I’ve been up to.
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