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When I think of who I am or look at myself what do I see...I see a man who every day wakes up hoping that that today will be better then last. I see someone who has been through soo much pain and heart ache that I wonder How I keep staying soo postive
I see A fighter someone who will will continue each and every day to try and make myself a better person
I see someone who still has soo much potential that I have yet to reach. I see someone who is a friend, brother, son,
Why is it that when I look at myself I think that I am a failure??? why is it that I see someone who no matter what I do I am never satisfied or I think that I am not living upto all this potential
I am scared of possibly never reaching my full potential.
I am scared that I will always feel like I have underachieved
I am scared I will not be the person that people hope I will be.I think that the lyrics to the Weepies song " Can't Go Back Now" fits what I am feeling


"Yesturday when you were young
everything you needed done
was done for you now you do
it on your own but you find
your all alone what can you do

you[you] and me[me]
walk on, walk on, walk on
cause you cant go back now

you know there will be days
when your so tired that you cant
take another step
now you will have no stars
and you'll think you've
gone as far as you'll ever get

you[you],and me[me]
walk on, walk on, walk on
cause you cant go back now

yeah,yeah
go where you want to go
yeah, yeah
be what you want to be
if you ever turn around you'll
see me

i can't really say why everybody
wishes they were some where else
but in the end the only steps that
matter are the ones you take all
by yourself

and you[you],and me[me]
walk on, walk on, walk on
yeah,you[you],and me[me]
walk on, walk on, walk on
cause you cant go back now
walk on, walk on, walk on

I will continue to walk on and hopefully those in my life when I turn around will be behind me encouraging, supporting, lifting me up, and will continue to be my support system

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